My OCD is showing...

Happy Hump Day!  Yeah, bah humbug!  I know that this is the incorrect season for that sentiment, but that's where I'm at with this whole moving stuff. 

A little about me; I'm a perfectionist.  Diagnosed in elementary school.  I also have some OCD tendencies.  Diagnosed my whole life.  Those things being said, any disruption to the order that I set forth in my notebook and in my head just throws me for a loop and sometimes cripples me.  It is also headache inducing...

That's what yesterday was like.  I had a plan, a very good one, I might add, to get the packing done and be on top of this moving thing.  Excepting that other folks (who shall remain nameless) didn't adhere to the plan.  So only about a quarter of the packing was done by yesterday.  A quarter!  And then someone changed the truck from Thursday to yesterday (again, a nameless person).  So it left me discombobulated.  And with a headache.  So I didn't get everything moved in the first round that I planned on.  Which puts the unpacking schedule and plan out of whack, and the cleaning, and the organizing, so on and so forth.  See where I'm going with this????  Grrrrr!

I'm making light of it, but I am seriously discombobulated.  This is something I've struggled with all of my life; it is both a blessing and a curse.  It makes me a very organized, detail-oriented, systematic, and logical person.  Which is great when you need something planned and organized; no detail is left out!  However, it also makes me obsessed with details and if something doesn't go according to plan, it takes me a minute to regroup. It makes me slow to accept change.  It sometimes takes me longer to get things done because everything has to be "perfect."  Um, yeah.  See the problem here?

per·fec·tion·ist

[pərˈfekSHəˌnist]

NOUN

a person who refuses to accept any standard short of perfection:

"he was a perfectionist who worked slowly"

synonyms: purist · stickler for perfection · idealist · pedant

ADJECTIVE

refusing to accept any standard short of perfection.

 

Compulsion symptoms

OCD compulsions are repetitive behaviors that you feel driven to perform. These repetitive behaviors are meant to prevent or reduce anxiety related to your obsessions or prevent something bad from happening. However, engaging in the compulsions brings no pleasure and may offer only a temporary relief from anxiety.

You may also make up rules or rituals to follow that help control your anxiety when you're having obsessive thoughts. These compulsions are often not rationally connected to preventing the feared event.

As with obsessions, compulsions typically have themes, such as:

• Washing and cleaning
• Counting
• Checking
• Demanding reassurances
• Following a strict routine
• Orderliness

Examples of compulsion signs and symptoms include:

• Hand-washing until your skin becomes raw
• Checking doors repeatedly to make sure they're locked
• Checking the stove repeatedly to make sure it's off
• Counting in certain patterns
• Silently repeating a prayer, word or phrase
• Arranging your canned goods to face the same way

Symptoms usually begin gradually and tend to vary in severity throughout your life. Symptoms generally worsen when you're experiencing more stress. OCD, considered a lifelong disorder, can be so severe and time-consuming that it becomes disabling.

Most adults recognize that their obsessions and compulsions don't make sense, but that's not always the case.

So, yeah, this is me.  I have OCD compulsions.  Now y'all know my dirty little secret!  While the logical part of me knows that I'm not perfect therefore anything I do/touch/think/feel will never be perfect, I try anyway.  You'll see, as you witness the move and final product in pictures and prose; I like things a certain way.  Period.

So what's a girl to do when the rest of the world doesn't adhere to her perfectionist standards (besides go behind them and do it right - which I have done on many occasions)?  She breathes - gets out her notebook, and makes a new plan.  

 Philippians 4:6-7New King James Version (NKJV)
⁶ Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; ⁷ and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.

So am I the only with OCD compulsions and perfectionist issues???? Holla @ Darvi!  And as always, be blessed!